brainwave

I realized this morning that I am quick on the draw with TMI. that's me, always ready to lead the conversation right into territory where most don't want to go. so what I was thinking, right after having this dawn on me was, "I'm pretty sure I wasn't ALWAYS like that." I mean to say that I know I've always sort of had the tendency to be the kind of person that was inclined to that sort of behavior, but think I've been more private in the past despite those proclivities. nowadays, my sense of decorum is pretty much gone. oh well, except at work, where I studiously hide most of my real self as much as possible!

then, believe it or not, I had yet another thought. I said to myself, "you know, I think this whole TMI-readiness came on to me only after I became a parent." but, why would that be? I have wracked my brains and I think it all comes down to vomit. since becoming a parent, I have also become largely immune to the effects of vomit. I used to be one of those people who couldn't stand to hear retching, let alone see it, smell it, partake in it, and etc. the thought of it would make me gag for reals. but now, after having been thrown up on so many times, having had to clean it up many times more, and also needfully having been sympathetic during all of that, I am, for the most part over the nauseous reaction I used to have to nausea. the breaking down of such a valuable biological barrier must lead to other breaches in one's make-up. collateral damage, so to speak. naturally, the correlation it brought me to the following hypothesis, which I am eager to test: those who do not react negatively to vomit are also in deficit in the way of filters that prevent the spillage of personal information.

by the way, I don't claim to be immune to the puke of all people (45-year old post golden trough gorging drunken puke is something I definitely want to stay away from, don't want to clean up, would not be sympathetic about, & etc.).